Conflicted

I’m not sure I can do this anymore; speak my truth.  At first I fumbled and then I found my voice but now I feel conflicted.  The hurt is overwhelming when I’m misunderstood.

 

This is an entry into the Trifecta Weekend Challenge.  Thirty-three words in first person narrative.

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20 Responses

  1. Am glad you decided to post this & be true to your self.Most of us have felt this way one time or the other-we are human after all but there is no way we can please all the people all the time-though we definitely want to be liked.Just ride the troughs & enjoy the crests-being true to self & respecting oneself is the only way to live-I agree your blog is yours & if people do not like it,well who is forcing them to read-they can jolly well leave!Am sure you will overcome your lows & shine-all the best to you:-)This is a beautiful piece,loved it!

  2. I hope you keep your voice. Sometimes I try too hard not to make waves, not to hurt people. Sometimes I try so hard that it only hurts and stifles me. Speak out! As long as you are speaking the truth and not trying just to be vindictive . . . you should not still your voice.

    • Thank you Barbara! I get stuck between being stifled and feeling like I’m flying without a net with a broken wing. I want people to like me but I really want to like myself and I need to realize that means that I have to be true to who I am. Always a work in progress, isn’t it? Thank you again.

    • Draug, it can be so hard. I hate the feeling of it and yet sometimes I’m not sure what I can do to shake it other than to take some time, not be so hard on myself and try to look on the bright side. And then sometimes I just eat a lot of mashed potatoes or a cupcake in my pajamas and wait for me to find my feet again.

    • Thanks Kenya. I think the thing I struggle with is being hurt by someone or something and saying so. I hate being a wave maker but, sometimes I have to say what I feel even if makes waters choppy. The alternative is to remain perfectly still but never get anywhere. I’m not sure if I’m ok with that. I’m not sure of much tonight. Good thing tomorrow is a new day :) .

    • Thank you Suzanne. I’m feeling a little low tonight and am really struggling with what to do with my blog. I hesitated posting this one but thought I have to follow the way I feel and so at the last minute I went with it. Thank you again!

    • I know right! I have had such a tough day trying to figure out what to do with my blog after a post or two in the recent months have ruffled a few feathers. I try so hard to be diplomatic and even but there are times when I have to be true to how I feel. I have bad days, my feelings get hurt, I’m not always ok with what people do and because my blog is about me, I write about what I experience…all of it. Anyway, I hesitated to submit this one because even though it’s only 33 words, it’s really personal and much lower than I usually show but I felt it and I have to follow that. And here I am :) .

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